Libraries. They're so fun. But I always get a little over my head and check out more books than I could possibly read! I got these before our road trip, thinking I would have a ton of extra time for reading and stuff. However, I had almost zero down time and most of these have gone unread so far. But I have hope! The one I'm on right now is Wishcraft and it's fabulous. It's about 40 years old but so much of it is still entirely relevant. I highly recommend it.
But anyways, I wanted to share the rest. Maybe, hopefully, I'll get around to reading them. If not, I guess I can always check them out again in the future!! Ah the beauty of libraries!
Have any of you read these books? How are they? Any other suggestions?
Holy cow, have I been busy! I almost forgot about this little blog. For those that don't follow me on instagram, we went to Kentucky for a week and then Eliza turned 5! And between those two adventures, we've been trying to squeeze in as much fun time as possible while we are in the last stretch of summer. But now I've got tons of things to share! Now if I can just find the time to get it all out here (:
Something I love about becoming more healthy physically is that it usually leads to you becoming more healthy emotionally and mentally. I have a few favorite inspirational people that I watch on Youtube to keep me motivated with eating well and here are some of their videos that really tugged on my heartstrings and inspired me to focus on my mental health as well. Because it's important, you know?
I seriously love these guys. They're just so good.
So while in Kentucky, I decided to do a 6 week challenge to ready me for my 60 mile bike ride coming up! I've got about 3 weeks left and can't wait to show my progress! Yay for getting fit!
Last week, in the middle of three incredibly busy and full days, I developed a canker sore. I was hoping it would go away and half way forgot, half way was too busy to care. But then it got worse and worse and worse. And by the end of three days, it was getting painful to eat and I decided that mayyyybe, I should proooobably do something about it!
So I went straight to my oils bag and pulled out my lemon and clove essential oils.
Clove oil is an analgesic, sedative, and anti-inflammatory. It's traditionally used in dentistry because of it's numbing and pain relieving properties. This was an obvious choice because my canker sore was certainly painful and some numbing was definitely in order.
By the time I started using my oils, we had hit the road for an all night drive to Kentucky. So I took advantage of my middle of the night, 4 hour driving shift and applied both of these every 30 minutes. I didn't use a full drop of each because it was so small. I just put my finger on the end of the bottle, flipped it over, and used the little bit to rub on my sore. By the next day, it was almost completely gone. The pain had ceased and it was a mere bump on the inside of my mouth. I applied it a few times throughout the next day and it was gone by the day after. Problem solved!!
Sometimes things just make so much sense. I found Mystic Mamma about a month ago and absolutely love it! She wrote about the full super moon and what it will bring for people and it was super accurate for me. Here's some of it (you can read the rest here)
FULL MOON Super Moon in Capricorn is here and this one promises to be potent and revelatory. With the Sun in Cancer, the archetype of the Mother, and the Moon in Capricorn, the archetype of the Father, the sacred balance and dynamism of the two becomes illuminated.
Take time to ground and reflect as the energy as of late has been emotional and streamed with karmic reflections. Illumination brings revelation but we must then have the courage to address so we can complete the karmic lesson and move more lightly into our future. Energy will shift next week, but for now must tend to the present and what is being illuminated!
“Issues of security are brought to the forefront during the Capricorn Full Moon. It urges us to look at our life through the lens of the questions, ‘Where do I feel at home?’ and ‘How can I feel more safe and protected regardless of where I am?’
“In pure Capricorn fashion, these aren’t light-hearted questions, but they are ones whose answers can provide us with the riches of insight to live a more integrated and productive life.
“What’s also highlighted during this Full Moon is the importance of maintaining a balanced sense of perspective. Cancer inspires us to both feel as well as value our feelings. It has flowing, soft, and undulating energy.
“Capricorn, on the other hand, is not focused on feelings but rather on diligent and responsible approaches to accomplishing tangible outcomes. The question becomes how the nurturer (Cancer) and the achiever (Capricorn) can co-exist.
“One way it can be done is that instead of wallowing in our emotions, we take a serious look at them, inventorying what they may be revealing. Once insights are gleaned, see what practical ways you take action to structure facets of your life so that they will further nourish you.
“Also, with this Full Moon, we are reminded that while the past is essential, it’s important not to get stuck in it.What came before may be an integral part of who you are but don’t let it pull you from the joys of the present.”
“The Sun in Cancer ‘Opposition’ to Moon in Capricorn, suggests the key is to restore balance and equilibrium between personal needs and professional needs. There may be relevant issues around ‘father/mother’ dynamic both physical parents as well as Inner Archetypes. Where is the conflict? What heals? How to create harmony? “
“…Under the Full Moon in Capricorn, many things may be highlighted and you may see the tangible area or areas which need the care, comfort and adjustment. The Full Moon in Capricorn’s potential is achieving long-term emotional mastery, and tangible results that are of the highest quality.
“Perhaps this will inspire you to make a more grounded commitment for lasting change and therefore have realistic expectations of incorporating new habits and ways that are loving, healthy and are full of integrity.
“Patience is essential now to handle or manage any emotional waves that are arising. The issue(s) is there to bring important insight and awareness. Be responsible for your emotions rather than projecting them onto others. They are not responsible for your happiness — you are.
“Step by step the goal is accomplished. With the Full Moon in Capricorn, it is imperative to learn to mature emotional responses and be responsible for one’s own emotional well-being and life. This may bring up opportunity to re-organize things including daily schedule, and how much time you give to care for your emotional well-being in a practical way.
“…Both Mercury in Gemini (re-enters Cancer) and Jupiter in Cancer (moving into Leo) are on the brink of changing signs. This is helpful to know as the next two weeks bring a surge of faster, bigger movement of opportunities, activities and growth. By the end of July 2014, there may be a feeling or sense of a change in the air and some fiery energy to activate things. Changes are happening now!”
These past few weeks, there has been an overwhelming presence of death in my life. I have been trying to make the best of it, trying to learn from it, and being positive but I think sometimes you just need to cry. Because that shit is sad. In the past 48 hours, I have had a total of 8 hours of sleep and I am exhausted in every way possible. I'm just a mess really. But I'm ok with it. I haven't had a day like this in while and I'm letting it come so that it may also go. So cry fest, here I come!
On top of my whole grandpa thing (which is always lingering in the back of my mind), in the past month, we've had two friends commit suicide. We've found out that two friends now have cancer. And that today is the anniversary of a friend who died an extremely tragic death in high school. Also, there was a mass shooting in my home town a few days ago, somewhere I was familiar with and had been to. Somewhere within 5 miles of where my family lives and 20 miles of where we actually live. It was terrible, a whole family killed execution style and the only one that survived was the 15 year old daughter. It's just sad.
Mostly, I have been very introspective and contemplative about it. Learning about death, observing how it affects people, how I want it to affect me, my spiritual beliefs about it, and all that. But today, I am just devastated. I feel as though I am carrying everyone's sorrow, their grief, their pain. My heart aches and the tears just fall freely. It seems as though everything makes me sad right now. And maybe that's ok. Because there's a lot to be sad about. And if there's a lot to be happy about when you're trying to be happy, maybe it's ok to be sad about everything once in a while. And today is definitely that day. Because everything is sad to me right now. I'm just letting my heart hurt because I think that's what it needs. And I'm learning that it's ok.
Death helps to put things into perspective for me a lot of the time. It's a heavy reminder of how short life is and to live it up while you still can. I remember that's the way it was when my step brother died and ultimately that led us on this journey to build our tiny home. It gave us courage to go after our dreams, even though they may have sounded a bit crazy. But this time, I'm more focused on my heart. I learned a long time ago, not to live with regrets. I almost always go for the things I want because I know I will regret it if I don't. But I want to live more true to my heart in the sense of how I interact with people. People come and people go and I want to make sure that nothing is left unsaid. I want to live more authentically, in a way that I just leave everything out on the table. I don't ever want to hold back what's in my heart, what I'm feeling, and what's trying to be let out. If people don't appreciate it, that's ok because at least I know I got out what I wanted to. And maybe give people the opportunity to do the same. Maybe I'll be surprised by what people respond with and maybe I won't. But then that part is something that is out of my hands. And not the reason for action in the first place.
So although it's a not-so-happy day for me, I'm taking this time to analyze my relationships with people and make sure that the people I love, know what they mean to me. Because you never know how much time you will have with them. And while I believe that they'll probably know after they're gone (or vice versa), I think it will make this journey of a life more pleasant knowing that I truly lived with my heart on my sleeve. I'm tired of building walls and trying to guard my heart, it's absolutely exhausting. I just want to love. And maybe I need to learn how to love myself better so that I don't require walls to protect the beauty within. Maybe I can let it grow wild and everything will turn out ok in the end.
Pardon my french but damn. These boys prove, pretty darn well, that you reallly don't need animal products even if you do want to get super ripped. And you can't really deny it with that last little video. AM I RIGHT ;)